okay, forget about it.
i'm not going to bother making any jewelry for the time being. i'm out of silver sheet, i'm out of wire, and unless those economic stimulus checks start reflecting in my Etsy shop, i'm just going to put it aside for a bit.
this happens. it's okay.
i'm going to focus on writing, new love (yep, the word "love" entered the picture) and my paying job for the moment, which is to get the word out on this book and get it out there.
That's my job, it is, working for Visionary Networks Press. I only work there four hours a day and it is BARELY enough to pay my rent, though it is great pay and quite frankly, I would rather not do more than four hours a day in an office anyway, despite how swank mine is. Originally I was hoping that with the sudden surge in activity in my Etsy shop I might be able to make ends meet between the two, but I can't, and never really have been able to, rely on that for steadiness - not with the shopping spurts and not with my creative spurts.
of course, this could all change entirely - my new love is, alas, a musician who's about to leave for most of the summer.
i have no doubts that i'll be able to fill my time (and i'll have to, heartbreak is easiest handled in a state of denial, and who really knows what our future holds - we care for each other right now - but absence does one of two things in these instances, and it's not always more fondness that results.
All we have is now. Which reminds me, I met quite a cute diversion the other day in this band, Now Is All You Have. I'm really enjoying the tracks I've heard on myspace and looking forward to a show here in Portland on May 22nd. Let the swooning over men ten years my junior begin. It will, perhaps, alleviate some of the pain and ardor directed to the one who's actually my age. Oh, bittersweet heart pangs, if nothing else it's a guaranteed source of material. And what I really need to be doing now is writing.
So no, there won't be any new jewelry for a little while - i'm a little bored with everything I know at the moment and tired of using old ideas to make new things. I'm tired of the internet, bored to tears in the Etsy forums and have no desire to promote at the moment. I'm even debating selling off a bunch of my supplies, thinking that perhaps it will create some space for new ideas. At the very least it will drum up some cash so I can buy silver (which has skyrocketed in price in the past few years - so much so they've started mining it in Idaho again).
And in the meantime I'll just continue to work on my book. It's gotta get done. I'm tired of people asking for it. ;-)
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Good luck with the book!
Oh, boo. I was hoping to score another wonderful clasp in front necklace. I lovelovelove the two I have already, and I seriously get such good vibes while wearing them. I have always resonated very strongly with most of my jewelry, but your two necklaces (and the bracelet, but not the same) are so strong with me that I wear them when I need a little jolt. I hope you find a balence between rent-pay and creative outlets!
Big hugs from me to you, Dori! -Ash
that's lame that your supplies have dwindled, your jewelry is really pretty. (i'm not stalking you per say, just your etsy : ) however, if this is break gives you the inspiration to finish your book, then i say revel in it. isn't it great having lots and lots of creative outlets?